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Name: Casey
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Atlanta
Gender: Female
Interests: Boys. Politics. Van Gogh. Dali. Picasso. Art. Queen. Beatles. The Killers. Nora Jones. Vanessa Carleton. Music. The Bassoon [otherwise known as Faggott]. The Flute. White Roses. Sunflowers. My friends. Love. EFY.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
6/14/2004
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| I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you | | |
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"Forget It"
It's a crime you let it happen to me
Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you
Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose
But my mind and all the things I wanted
Everytime I get it I throw it away
It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay
By the time I lose it I'm not afraid
I'm alive but I can Surely fake it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see
Forget it
There's a place I see you follow me
Just a taste of all that might come to be
I'm alone but holding breath you can breathe
To question every answer counted
Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
Forget it
Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
It's a crime you let it happen to me
Out of mind, I love it, easy to please
Nevermind, forget it, just memories
On a page inside a spiral notebook
Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
I can live forever here
Forget it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're a part of me that I don't wanna see
I can live forever here
 ~me
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| http://www.askmen.com/dating/heidi_100/114_dating_girl.html
This article is amazing.
I laughed so much. And Johnny Depp...most definately a S.B.
~me
Hey, I'm making Zach a shirt and I want feedback:
the Logo on the front:
It looks a little fuzzy but that's just cuz of Xanga
and the back...
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| - Lover Come Back to Me
So Josh broke up with me last night. And even though it sucked from about yesterday when I read his email until today before my bassoon lesson, I'm better now. I bawled my bloody eyes out today. I think today is the first time in years where I've cried in every single class unashamedly. And I cried in front of him. But it was a good cry. We talked things through and I respect his decision. Yeah it hurts, but life moves on. And guess what? I'm not anti-guy. Shocking, but true. I'm just thankful for the time we had together and I've made my peace. I think I'll have one last good cry for him, but just one more. Then I will be done and ready to move on. He and I will remain friends, and ya know what? That's awesome. I still want to get to know him better. It's ok that we aren't together romantically anymore. Sure, it was amazing while we had it, but that time is past. Now we just gotta live off of our memories from each other. And there were more than a few good times. New York was made even more amazing by him. Being able to fall asleep in his arms on the way back from New York was pretty nice. So yeah, he hurt me, but ya know what? I'll live. I got exactly what I wanted and needed from this relationship. Yeah, I would have liked it to go on longer, but what can you say? It's over. I had a blast. I let myself fall again. Sure I was falling for Josh, but that's ok. He let me be able to trust myself again. I'm willing to open up; I'm willing to learn; I'm willing to take a chance. Most of all, I'm willing to love again. And not that scared-y oh I can't love him love, I'm talking about head over heels butt over face love. The kind that makes you go insane when you're not around them. However, I'm willing to wait. This summer is going to be my summer. I'm going to be who I want to be, I'm going to have fun, and I'm going to be amazing. I'm going to be me and enjoy it.
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